It’s a small crime.

Okay I know I’ve not been update much here, and I’m so sorry about it.

I’ve came back from Bali. Nice island, super hot weather, Malaysian kind of food (though it’s Indonesian food), tremendously nice beach for water sport! Bali is the only place that I’ve visited and I can’t tell whether it’s nice to be visited. Of course it’ll be nice to travel there and enjoy the nice sandy beach, but then I just can’t tell whether it’s nice or not.

Life has not been easy for me since I’ve came back from Bali trip. You name the scale of hatred for office politic, I’ll tell you the maximum number of it. Yes I’ve been dealing with office politics since I’m back and I hate it so much. Why can’t people just tell colleagues about work civility, but must do it to humiliate the others? I just hate them for doing all these to those who are innocent, and you’ll be sorry for whatever that you’d done. I’m truthfully sorry to have to show my evil side, and you’ll be extremely sorry for had triggered my evil side.

And I shall leave the topic above as it is. I’ll be just fine dealing with it, and you might need to pray for the opponent, for me I will never let them step on me again.

Oh well~

I hope everyone have a nice week, for me is not going to have a relax ones, not before I finish my current emergency project.

I wish you well and health and happy.

You lost the love I loved the most.

I talked to him about you.

I told him some stories about us.

And then you know what?

He told me right to my face that, you don’t care at all.

but i won't be sad forever, it'll always heal.

it’s tearing me up inside.

put on a smile on my face and things gonna be okay. easier say than done.

i cried, but i can’t shout, i can’t yell, i can’t tell how much pain i have inside.

it’s just too much. i have to pour it all out.

you might heard me cursed.

but..

i’m not mad at anyone, or anything.

i’m mad at myself.

for being such a fool.

i've been giving out chances, and all you do is let me down.

i’ve know you, for quite some time already.

and yea. maybe it means that you know me well, or you somehow figured me out. but truth is, you know nothing. but apparently you think that i have no feelings, or i can take whatever treatment you gave me.

here's all your lies, you can look me in the eyes with the sad look that you wear so well

so what if you were to run into a guy who doesn’t know how to appreciate you?

it doesn’t matter, really.

it will be just another lesson in life, live with it with a big smile on your face. because one day, he will regret for letting you go. and of course, you’ll always meet a better one in the future and this guy will be a history in your life.

i don’t know whether all guys do the same thing, hiding things behind their girlfriend and thinks that they’re too stupid to find it out themselves. and maybe, this kind of guys just don’t know how much it hurts for girls to find it out ourselves than they telling the truth. don’t give the stupid reason that you guys don’t want to hurt your girl so it’s better to keep it, it’s just an excuse you give it to yourself just to make you yourself feels better! when things come clear, you can’t imagine how hurt will it be, ’cause you don’t know, ’cause you never had that heart pain before. and it was all just about you, but not that girl, ’cause you wouldn’t have done that if you ever think of her feelings. and you were never serious in it.

don’t pretend like you care, ’cause it’s ugly, when i know, she knows that it was all lies and you were just fooling around!

hey young girl, don’t let him hurt you anymore. it doesn’t worth it at all, so just walk away.

you will be just fine with yourself, and one day your fairytale will come true in reality.

p.s. i know it’s hard for you, but be strong, i’m here to support always.

p.s.s. great, tell that to yourself yeeying!

all the possibilities where i was wrong.

seriously, wth is wrong with me today?..

nearly got into accident twice today.

broke 3 bowls today.

got my finger cut today.

wat the hell is wrong with me today?!