It’s that time of the year again.
What I’ve been doing for the past 365 days? What did I achieved in the year of 2011? I don’t really know – I mean the time just literally flew by and never come back again. But, let’s see what I’ve done the past year.
This will be my very last post, typing with this Dell keyboard in this cozy office (oh well it has been quite stuffy ’cause the air-conditioner broke down) environment. I’ll be missing everyone here, I’ll be thinking of them when I’m at the whole new environment.
Everyone has been reasonably nice to me, though we had argument and disagreement. Office politics once broke us apart but time healed everything and now we’re like good buddy. And it’s so heavy-hearted to leave, now, at this time.
It’s good to know that everyone whom I’ve dealt with appreciate my work here. It’s more than enough to listen to that “What should we do once you leave? No one can help us any more”. It’s just so heart-warming to realize that everyone here wanted me to stay, even just for a little longer.
I’ve never felt like this before, not even when I left my day care tutor job. I’ve never had this mix and contradicting feelings inside. I know I made the right decision to leave, but little did I know it would be this hard to actually tell everyone goodbye.
Some of the colleagues took effort to pay me a meal or snack before I actually leave. My dearest department will be having a delayed farewell with me next week. I want to hug everyone goodbye, I don’t know how to make this easier for me.
I’m running out of time now, I’ll be leaving here in 30 minutes.
Let’s hope the annual dinner will be a great ones, and pictures will be uploaded soon.
I’m certainly in the mood for blogging today.
I was driving back home after work, it’s my usual road to get back home passing by Kesas Highway. I know that one sentence had stuck in my head since I first came across of it on Facebook.
Driving back home from Kesas will never be the same again. RIP. – EeLyn
I always let go of the accelerator slowly whenever this sentence came back to me. I know I’ve been watching the road, trying to figure out where was the actual accident place. Then I know I have to stop thinking about this because I’ll end up freaking myself out. But I also know that it has taught me to be even more careful on the road.
Then I was passing the roundabout in order to turn into my house.I was taking the 3pm-turns when I realized there were a few cars stopping at the side and people gathered on the grassy divider. I didn’t managed to see what was going on there, but then again the accident came into my mind. I didn’t get myself too distracted because of what I’ve just seen, I managed to get home safe and sound.
While we were having dinner, I asked dad if those people were still there when he was on his way back. He said they were still there and apparently there was a Kancil on the grassy divider, leading against the lamppost? There was an accident.
And I certainly felt like, oh no please make this stop. God, please make everything alright again.
My dear friend who is reading this, please be safe. Please, promise me.
P.s. I wish the girlfriend of my junior will stay strong for everyone else, and herself.
I’m trying to look at this whole situation in her shoes.
What will I do? How will I take this? Why will I behave like this? Being a mother of a child, I know for sure I want the best for my kid.
But, it doesn’t mean that I’ll take control over their life.
This life that I’ve been living for 22 years, I’m lucky enough to have my parents who love me by understanding and trusting their daughter. I’m fortunate to have my own rights in making important decisions. I’m grateful that I’ve learned unpleasant and hurtful lessons throughout my life. I’m glad to be who I am now because my experiences made me better and shaped me to become this daughter that my parents are proud with.
Despite the distance, we are just like any other couple in this world.
We keep each other up to date with everything by sending expensive messages or making super costing calls over foreign lands and seas. We talk everyday because none of us can bear the loneliness for not talking even only for a night. We give “visual” good-night-kiss to each other every night like how some other couple do it over the phone.
Despite the distance, we are just like any other couple in this world.
And I miss him so much.
I wish I could fly, so that I could be in his arms now.
I’m all ready to jump on the plane and fly all the way to Melbourne.
Started to stuff in my clothes, clothes and more thick jacket in during the weekend, but just realized that I can actually bring a bigger luggage since I can bring 20kg with me (so I won’t need to really stuff everything in that poor small luggage). So I took my time to take out all my packed stuff, and slowly threw all those into a bigger luggage bag. And I actually have so much of extra space for me to bring more souvenir back! (Okay my boyfriend will definitely knows what to do when he’s reading this)
But who cares if I really can bring all the awesome stuff back from there, I can’t stuff my boyfriend into my luggage. =/
Yet I’m really glad that I’ll be seeing him soon (yea, youuu!) And that one week is going to be so precious to me.
I just, can’t wait to see you again hun. It feels so different to be able to touch and feel you then just watching you moving on my screen. Though we’d been talking all these while, the feelings of you is fading when time passes by. I need that back. I need it back to ensure me to not think silly things or to complete the feelings in my heart. ‘Cause something is missing there – the touch of you is missing there.
I’m sorry to be selfish in this. For once I don’t know how to be generous enough to let go of you when I know that you’ll need to go through all the hard times just to come back for me. Forgive me to be this selfish because I don’t think I could ever find someone like you anymore.
Anyway (yea this is not suppose to be an emo post), I’ll be seeing youuu after so long!
Just 3 more days. =]
less-than-three.
