Happy Chinese New Year!
I was suppose to update something about this festive season but I didn’t manage take any pictures while I was visiting my friends’ house. *facepalm* So it’s really just like any other CNY visiting trip – greetings, eating, drinking and ang pau.
I’m sorry that this will be a boring ones.
But I wish you’ll continue to have a great and enjoyable celebration ahead.
And have a prosperous and joyous year! =]
I still remember the very first time that I saw you.
International airport. Coming down from a cab with your parents. Reminding me of someone I know. Kept watching you at the airport. Glad to find out that we were on the same tour.
I guess, you’ve successfully gained my attention even before you speaks to me. I wasn’t myself since I met you. Or maybe you’re the one who actually reveal the true me inside.
Maybe..I already know I will love you that time. No matter how hard I tried to talk myself into believing it will all never turns out right.
I waited for your emails. I responded to your messages. I went out with you, a lot of times. It all started to went out of control and I was so evil. But you said, it was my evilness that we now have us.
365-days ago, I didn’t know that we will go this far. It all seems to be a normal outing with my family. We were just being “friendly” in inviting you for the movie and dinner. And then, before I even realize what I was doing, I was leaning on your shoulder like I’ve done it a thousand times already. Walking in the almost-empty mall with my arms in yours made me felt like, finally….a calming home.
No will-you-be-my-girlfriend question was being asked, but here we are holding each other close to us for a year from the date we both agreed to be The-Day we got together officially.
Though we spent most of this one year apart, we did it okay in maintaining this relationship. Having distances between us doesn’t make this relationship easier or harder, simply because we trust and treasure each other enough to talk things through over skype. #successfulkid.jpg And sometimes we ran out of ideas of what to talk about, I could still look at you without having to say anything and don’t feel awkward about it.
You’ve been very patient and loving, thank you so much for having to deal with my childishness and emoness at times. Soon you’ll be home and I could jump on you to tell you how much I’ve missed you.
And how glad I am to have you in my life, for now and later.
less-than-thee.
In this life, I’ll always have something that I wish I could achieve.
Something that I wish I could have and have no regret for this life.
Yet, it’s not always like that. Life is unfair that it makes you fall into the decision-making circumstances and then you’ll have to make decision – whether you like it or not, you’d got to choose and know that it’s your choice.
I’ve never regretted for leaving people that I’ve used to love, simply because it was proven later that it was the best choice and I’ve no regret for walking away. I’ve never regretted for choosing a university which I’ll have to move away for 3 years, because I’ve learned to be independent and see the world with my own eyes. I’ve never regretted for working as a tutor for young children at the daycare centre, because I know I’ll never let my own children experience whatever that can be happen there. I’ve never regretted for joining the first company though the company kinda sucks, because I met great friends there and I heart them so much.
And, I’ve never regretted for giving up Hong Kong and that master course.
I’ve never regretted choosing our future together over my university’s dream.
For me whom had been wishing for a man who knows how to appreciate and love me, it’s never too hard to give up something that I know I can live without – my dream of completing master course aboard. I know I can do well and good in career even without those experiences and certificate, I have enough strength and will to achieve a reasonably good career. I know some will say that I’m being stupid enough to give up this for you, but I know it ain’t true and I don’t care.
Plus, I know I have a bigger dream than that. I know I have not been writing lately, it’s not because of oh-gawd-im-so-busy-i-have-no-time-to-do-my-own-things but it’s just because I don’t have any idea to write. I have not forgot about my big dream – I’m trying to survive in this cruel society while trying my best to try to achieve my big dream.
I’m totally fine with my situation now, I’m happy with my job ’cause it’s so damn awesome to work in this position. It’s just that….I envy those who can get away and spend a little more time as student aboard. Have no worries of life is nice, but it’ll be like a runaway if I selfishly do it now. I have my responsibilities and obligations to uphold. And I would never forgive myself…if I ever be that selfish and greedy.
Given me another chance now, I’ll still choose to stay and be independent as a white-collar worker. I’ll still choose my near future with you than having to deal with another few months of LDR.
I would earn and spend time overseas as a tourist. I would stay for now to be able to spend holidays with you aboard.
That’s my choice. And know that I’m satisfied. =]
I want you between me and the feeling I get when I miss you.
I remember how I always ran my fingers through my phone’s keyboard to search for this song recording you made for me. I hugged my phone to listen to it before I go to bed. I played it at the side when I was driving. I had it repeated like a thousand times on my laptop.
I should have know that, it’s the sign of me falling for you.
I got used to you whispering things to me into the evening.
I don’t remember exactly when did I started to enjoy talking to you. I knew it was easy to talk to you, though you are the 101% English-educated guy and I’m the 101% Chinese-educated girl. The conversation always went very easily and no awkward long pauses or so. And then I don’t remember when did you started to whisper things to me, into evenings or midnights, in your warm arms.
Show me a clock for counting my days down.
When all of the sudden, you’re thousand miles away from me, and what we have were/are just memories and skype. The distance wasn’t very easy to be dealt with, but we managed it anyway. Sometimes it feels too lonely to be alone here, to just see you over the webcam and get virtual hugs and kisses. And I know it wasn’t easy for you too. So we had this clock in our heart, counting down to the day when we’ll finally be together again.
I’m so glad to have you again for one month and 6 days.
And whenever you go it’s like holding my breath under water.
I couldn’t gather the courages to send you off at airport, again. The tears were running down my cheek like a broken water pipe. The feelings were killing me, it’s like I’m losing you. I know you’ll be coming back again, yet I hate to feel like I’m losing you to…whatever-it-is.
Then now, we’re back to the same old routine.
Come back, and find me.
In a few months time, you’ll be back. And I’ll have home.
Because…
Everything’s easier when you’re beside me.
Hello there!
It’s been 2 weeks of a brand new year and I certainly wish you’re having a great ones.
My new year started pretty well, with not very massive jam on the road and a enthusiastic working environment. Yeap, I know the traffic is quite stressing and tiring, but I’m enjoying my own little space in the car, clearing my mind or just thinking random stuff while trying not to stay too close to other cars #likeaboss
I’m satisfied and happy with my new job, though I’m sure it’s not the peak season for advertising yet since it’s just the start of this year. All my colleagues are very friendly and kind to guide me through projects and also in understanding clients.
Let’s hope that it’s gonna be an awesome job okay?
Promise to take a picture of my pathetic seat, and you’ll know why is it pathetic then.
Cheers, for new year and new start.
I’ve come across this post of 9gag today (Yea, I surf on 9gag.com everyday and my sister called me a geek).
I know you can’t really read it here because it’s too small, so please do click on the image to go directly to the post. *winks*
If you’d finished the 9gag post, I know surely the sadness and heartache is somehow lingering in your heart. Not everyone had been into that situation before, but maybe you’d encountered someone whom had lost someone so dearly to them and had difficulties in getting over that great agony.
And I always wonder, how do people cope with all the distress and despair causing by the lost of their loved ones. I’ve lost people I loved before due to natural life cycle, and also sickness and accidents.
I always have this thinking in my head, where if you lost someone simply because of the life cycle or severe health problems, it’s not very hard to overcome the agony of lost. But, if it’s something unpredictable aka accidents, it’s always very hard for people to accept the sudden fact and the overwhelming emotions.
Then, I’ll always think and think and think, how can one manage to get it over with? How can one still be able to love another ones when they’ve once lost someone they loved, so unexpectedly? I know one will always manage to love again, but….will that feeling reminds one about the one that got away? Will there be a comparison between both love?
I don’t know for sure because I’ve never been there. All I have is my own very small brain to justify this whole thing.
I know it’s gonna be as hard as you can imagine at the very start, then days by days the feelings will lingers in the heart and moving on seems like a mission impossible. But then there’ll be a point where the acceptance comes in. One day, the fact of the someone is gone will be accept and going through daily intercourse without him/her seems a little bit easier than before. Then you start smiling and feeling again. Yet always remember that one person who once lighted up your life.
I have friends whom had been there but I dare not to bother them with my stupid question. Yet I always have this very upset feelings and the question whenever I come across this kind of news.
I do not know what else to be written about this.
It will forever be a question without an answer.
It’s that time of the year again.
What I’ve been doing for the past 365 days? What did I achieved in the year of 2011? I don’t really know – I mean the time just literally flew by and never come back again. But, let’s see what I’ve done the past year.
